Thursday, December 11, 2008


We're all heading to the doctor this month, in a rush to tie up loose ends before the end of the year. I just went to my dentist appointment for a cleaning. I immediately confessed to the hygenist that I don't floss regularly, although I am trying so I can set a good example for Livija. She asked about Livija and if she was our only child. Typically I'd say yes and leave it at that. For some reason I said yes, and we are in the process of adopting our second. She smiled and shared with me that her children were both adopted from Korea! She even used the same agency as ours.
As I was leaving she stopped me and said that the wait can be very hard. She said that once that picture arrives and we see our baby, it will only get harder. She even compared it to the longest most painful labor in the world. BUT, she added, that once our little one comes home, you forget how hard it was.
I imagine it is like the long months waiting for Livija to come home from the NICU. You wait and you cry and you scream, while the light at the end of the tunnel seems so dim and so far away. But suddenly you've arrived. You are finally a family and you can hardly imagine what life was like before that moment. I'll keep that in mind when the picture comes. Although I imagine I won't be so rational at that point.


Eileen said...

It is really amazing what happens when you open up about it...she obviously caught you in a vulnerable moment, with you not regularly flossing and all;) Anyway, I'm usually very private and closed-mouthed about what we're going through, but there have been moments where I opened up and experienced something similar. That is so cool that she also used the same agency!

I loved your last paragraph...that's how I imagine it too.

Anonymous said...

to my daughter....
you bring tears to my eyes with your writing...
you express your feelings more in this way than I have ever heard verbally.
I want you to know how very proud I am of you and all you have been through..
You are a wonderful mother, daughter, and friend, and I know you will soon be a family of 4 :)
love, mom

Anonymous said...

I second your mom : )

You are an inspiration to us all, especially me.

Lots of love to you all,

Tara Marie said...

I am so thankful you started this blog about this journey and letting us all share in the experience. We are so excited for you.....

all of our love, Tara Marie & clan