Tuesday, October 27, 2009

LAST NIGHT IN KOREA

This is it. Our bags are packed and lined up by the door. We spent our last day doing some last minute shopping, visiting a buddhist temple, and walking to the Seoul Tower. Yes... WALKING. With a 20 lb baby strapped to me. The Seoul Tower is up a VERY steep VERY long hill, overlooking the city of Seoul. It wasn't easy, but it was a nice way for our son to say goodbye to his first home. We ended our night with a walk at the rooftop garden by our hotel. The cool evening air calms Kalvis before sleep. Bedtime is still his hardest time, but has gotten SO much better. He used to cry unconsolably. Now he cries, but I am able to soothe him. Previous nights he seemed to be searching for his foster mother. So baby steps towards a healthy loving bond with his mama.
Leaving Korea is bittersweet. I can NOT wait to see Livija and have the four of us together. FINALLY. And yet, I am sad that Kalvis has to say goodbye to such a wonderful country. Many native Korean people stopped us in the street to bless our baby and wish him well in his new home of America. One man even came up with very limited english and pointed to Kalvis' eyes and then mine stating, "it no matter". It doesn't. I have no idea why, but our son was meant to be born halfway around the world to another mother. This somehow seems perfect to me. I wouldn't change a thing. My little Tae-seong is a blessing and while I may not have thought so at the time, each step that led us to him was also a blessing. I am a very happy mommy tonight. i will be a VERY VERY happy mommy tomorrow with Kalvis, Livija and Imants.

13 comments:

Sarma said...

What a beautiful journey you all will have together. Imants did a pretty good job with the camera!!

Frannie said...

I absolutely LOVE this picture. You look so happy and fulfilled...and like "you" are meant to look. You finally have your family and I couldn't be happier for you. Big hug to the 4 of you!!!

Linda Devlin said...

Beautiful!!!
Marcie, you really put down in writing your thoughts beautifully!
I cried reading it.. happy tears!
miss you so much.. and can't wait to see all 3 of you in '1 sleep'!
love, mom

Susan said...

Oh Marcie - I am so happy for you! I have loved following this amazing journey of yours and I am so thankful we have become friends so we could watch you go through it! Thank you for sharing such a personal and exciting time with all your wisdom and understanding of what this all really means to both our children, their country and your family. Safe journey home and may you all share many blessings in your new life together!

Anonymous said...

Everyday I wake up anxious for a new post from you and some lovely pictures. This gave me chills and made me cry incredibly happy tears. You are an inspiration to me. I hope that someday we'll travel half way around the world to bring our baby home if that, in fact, is what the stars have lined up for us.

Lots of love,
Becky

Anonymous said...

Wow Marcie, so well said. You have made me look at things with such new perspective. I'm so happy for the way things worked out. I can't wait for the stories once Livi meets her new little brother. She is going to be such a great big sister and you are going to have the happy family you so deserve and have waited so long for. It is going to be such a beautiful reunion for your family at the airport. Have a safe flight home-I've thoroughly missed you!
Love,
Janel

Anonymous said...

Have a safe journey home and a fabulous and adventurous life together full of love and understanding! Cheers, Ilze in Riga

The Woodgetts said...

This picture is beautiful. I can't wait to see the next picture posted of the entire family!

E said...

I'm tearing up...a wonderful post! Congratulations again!!!

Jackie, Tyler, Abry and Kaden said...

Safe travels with your new son! He is beautiful!

Rachel said...

Wow - that was a beautiful post! Have a safe trip home!

Slytherpuff said...

You have me crying again!

MissJenn said...

Wow! What beautiful pictures and entries. The man who pointed at the eyes and said "it no matter". Oh! I just lost it at that point.
And the photo you took of him with is foster mother is absolutely stunning. He's a beautiful, beautiful, boy.
Thanks for sharing.
Jennifer